This post is really coming later than scheduled, and I apologize. Anyways, Enjoy!
These words define the exact way I felt after playing 5-aside footy on the basketball court, along with some *sighs* and *oohs* and a plethora of other tired and lazy noises and expressions. Walking back from the court is always a problem, but it’s always made easy with people walking beside you talking about things that would probably never happen (smh). Then one of these “friends” said something that baffled me. What he said emphasized my opinion (not sure it’s a fact yet) that Nigerian Politics have stained the mind of youths in our great with the idea that quick money can come from anywhere. He said:
“If Man Utd. offered me a 10-year contract worth 250k a week, I would sign it even if I don’t play for those 10 years”.
How narrow-minded can human beings get? I told them that it was bullshit and by signing that contract, you’ve officially wasted 10 years of your life. They said as long as the money is coming and they are receiving medals (that they didn’t even have the desire to play for), all is well.
There are people in this life o! I never thought that I could find people who just want to go through life without making an impact in life someway or somehow. It was said again some other time when I was beating the same people in FIFA (Man U to be exact….. :D), and I couldn’t even talk again, I just left the room after my game so I won’t argue.
So I went to my room (jobless af!), and I couldn’t get it off my mind. But instead of me thinking of that contract bullshit exactly, I thought about me. What am I gonna do? I have this particular arrogance of making sure my presence was felt anywhere I went to, and failure to do that just brought me down into an annoying mood swing, which lead to depression. Adding to the fact that I’m as arrogant as anyone can be (ask my fmr. music teacher), I have a certain bad luck whenever my expectations are high (Life’s a Bitch).
Normally I expect anybody I see in AUN to be ambitious. I expect that the main reason they are in school is to get a degree, masters, and make their own company (or get a 1 mill-a-month job). However, I’ve seen my expectations crushed again by meeting some particular people who just believe that they will always be the average individual who will graduate and get an average job, with an uncertain future. It’s funny how students can have that mindset, considering the fact that I found such people in a school that the tuition alone is 795k (we haven’t even thought of housing and other stuff yet, which raises the total fees to an est.1.5 mill).
Putting all this together, I thought of myself. I have an average CGPA, very average to above average grades, a nice rapport with most of my teachers and lot of friends with a few trusted ones. My lassies-faire approach to whichever room and whoever’s my roommate has given me mixed results, from a terrible roommate in the fall (ugh!!!) to a steady and relatable set of roommates in the spring (thank God!). This isn’t the case for the classes I pick tho, as I prefer thinking of the timing of the classes rather than listen to the popular talk about lecturers, so I disregard them. I’ve already thought of life after AUN, with mixed results. While I plan of doing NYSC before my masters (my sister did the opposite), I haven’t really figured out what I want to do. I’ve jotted down several possibilities like getting a job at First Bank or making a business, but nothing has been finalized yet. I don’t believe I have time though, so I feel that it should be settled so I know where I’m heading and how to get there.
Despite the indecision, I think I can do it big. I think that with the desire and the determination, the sky is the beginning. And you know what would be better: if everybody felt the same way. Unfortunately, it’s true that some of us won’t be as successful as they want to be, but it’s never bad to make a gamble or a calculated risk. It’s never bad to have an ambition to do something, no matter how impossible it looks or it seems.
That’s why I support teams like Chelsea and Germany: They wear Adidas, and with them, Impossible is Nothing!